Nostalgia

Did you ever have one of those days when you yearn for your youth again? Those carefree days when you could just go and do anything at all with whoever was your friend, or boyfriend at the time?

I think I had one of those nights. I couldn't stop thinking about all of the people who passed through my high school years. And then wondering what happened to all of them. I SO wish email was around so readily when I graduated high school in 1992.

Today is Shawn Belanger's birthday. The first boy who I had an all out crush on when I was in the seventh grade. He was in the eighth grade, but he was friends with some of our friends. I was 12, and he was 13 when I kissed him for the first time on the hill behind my parent's house. He felt guilty for weeks because one of his friends was totally in love with me. So he didn't talk to me after that for very long. He ended up getting a bloody nose and black eye from his friend after he told him what happened on the hill. Hard to believe that I had that kind of impact on another 13 year old.

Don't get me wrong, I love my life. My husband. My kids.

Some days I just wish we could have a do-over, to experience some things that we wished we had, or erase some that we wish we hadn't. But then be able to come back to our lives now. Of course, that would never work, because how we got to this present moment all falls on the events that happened in our past in the exact way that they happened.

Happy 35th birthday Shawn! Wherever you may be.